Life constantly takes you by surprise, or maybe you don’t get surprised. Maybe, just maybe, when things happen you just shake your head to and fro and think, shouldn’t I have seen that coming?
I feel like this constantly happens to me. I shouldn’t be surprised by anything because I should see it coming. How many guys did I say, “oh just so you know, I am not a relationship girl and more than likely I’ll break your heart because I broke this person’s heart and this person and this person and this person, but you must understand I am just not ready for a relationship” and yet every guy said he was fine with that, and then when I walked out? You would think I was the biggest bitch ever. Never fails, every time, over and over again.
I realize this time was different. I realize that I said things in my little latida caitlin mind that actually made you think you were the exception.
but honestly? was it worth going through all of that trouble? do you realize how many friends I am losing? But of course that is karma right? it is what I deserve, right?
that’s fine. truly, it is. because at the end of the day it just reminds me of the genuine people I have in my life and the fake people that constantly pop in and out of my life.
and just so you know, and you, I am not angry with how things turned out. I learned from both of you. I have come to the realization that some people walk in and right back out of your life, but that doesn’t make them unimportant. It doesn’t mean that they didn’t leave a mark. you both left marks, thank you for that.
honestly all three of you left a mark, and for that I am thankful, truly.
I need to remind everyone how incredibly important family is, and with that I will sign off and finish off movie night, and then I shall continue with my life tomorrow as I continue with my life every day.
I will continuously take step after step and remember to never be shocked with the happenings which occur.
why? it is simple really, it is MY life, in the words of Jordan Marzec I am an alien,
so what is so surprising?